Category: Healing

The accident and concussion brought a stillness to my life I hadn’t experienced in a very long time. The stillness was like being in a forest with no wind. The only thing I could hear were my thoughts. My intuition was on pause and my mind filled with memories, the not so good kind.  The…

Four short years ago I had just entered the workforce after being a stay at home mom for 11 years. I was working part time as a secretary and was well into my healing journey. During this time my intuition came back with a clarity I had remembered as a child. I say came back,…

As I reflected on this week 4 years ago it feels like decades. My life changed in ways even four years ago I could not see coming. (You can read about that day here https://lifenofilter.com/2019/10/04/425/ ) The word that comes to mind is fear. Four years ago I was just starting to understand my intuitive gifts. I…

Three years ago my life would change in ways that on this day in 2019, I could never fathom. You can read the details in this blog post. Today as I reflect on that day, I’m recalling the fear of being seen. The fear of being wrong. The fear of how people would judge me.…

Above is an excerpt from “The Thunder: Perfect Mind”. It was sent to me from a friend and each time I read it, it evokes a fire within me. A reminder of all that I am and all that I have been. A message of forgiveness, grace, and clarity. The big bold sign from the…

Grief is hard, we all know that. What I think no one talks about is how much grief changes you. The change is drastically different for each person. Not only does it change people but your life changes so drastically. When I lost my best friend there was the grieving of her presence. There was…

The past few days I’ve been thinking about times of darkness. My reflecting on my past was inspired out of gratitude. That sounds odd to be grateful for the dark, sad, and overwhelming times from my life. My gratitude is for my survival. The remembering is a stark reminder that pain and suffering is a…

I often get asked if I believe in God. As if somehow the idea that I believe in something greater than myself somehow collides with who I am and what I do for a living. Sometimes there is a shock in the face asking the question “Do you believe in God?” when I reply, “yes…

Small town living…. As a kid I couldn’t appreciate or understand the gift of being raised in a small town. As a young kid it was freedom, we rode our bikes everywhere from sun up to sun down. Not a cellphone or parent in sight. We would bounce from park to park, yard to yard…

Competition is by definition the activity or action of competing. We start at a young age being programmed to compete in every single aspect of our lives. We then turn everything thing we do into a comparison with others. Competition belongs in sports and certain places in life. Healthy competition can be fun and build…

This past year is one I’ll never forget. It’s not just because we lived in a global pandemic, although that is certainly a big part of it. 2020 has been a year of big lessons, growth, and so much learning. Ten years from now I will look back on this year, as one that changed…

The people who have hurt you. The ones being unkind, are only projecting something from inside of THEM. There are some people that no matter how much you try, will never change. People who are not happy with themselves or their own lives are usually not very nice to other people. It’s a good indicator…

It’s been a year since I started my business. It’s so crazy that it’s only been a year. It feels like decades, but in the best way. I feel happy and calm. It’s like my soul finally is freed to be and do what it was put here to do. Somedays I think about just…

On this day 22 years ago I was a 17 year old girl who’s only worry was what my plans would be for the weekend. I was unaware of how short life can be. The details of the Labor Day weekend over two decades ago are pretty vivid despite the time that has passed. The…

How can 5 years feel like a lifetime and a day all at once? It will be 5 years since the day I said goodbye to my best friend. It’s hard to put into words the loss I feel still to this day. The truth is there is not a day that goes by I…

I grew up in a small middle class town. Everyone was white. My school district was comprised of two different villages with maybe 80-100 kids per grade. Of those students there were only ocassionally a non-white student. There were not any African American families in town. I grew up really only seeing people of color…

The ups and downs of quarantine have been interesting. I find myself reflective of all aspects of it. I’m in a time in my life where things that once would’ve sent me spiraling seem to wash away. It’s like there are loud waves crashing all around me but I’m only able to focus on the…

Did you wake up today? If the answer is yes , then you are already having a better day than the 105 people that will die globally in the minute it took you to read that sentence. ( that’s the normal death statistic not corona virus specific) I understand there is fear, and uncertainty. It…

Yesterday morning we were all running behind. I still needed to get myself dressed for work, and both kids still had not gotten dressed or brushed their teeth. It was 8:00 a.m. we leave around 8:20 a.m. My 5 year old daughter walked in asking to please be snuggled. She has been struggling with me…

No. Who knew two letters, one word could set you free? It’s a small word that seems to be more and more difficult to use. It isn’t something that just rolls off the tongue. We sort of pause and stammer and reach for an excuse. There are many times I feel most of us want…

Phew….2019 was a doozy! It was 365 messy, beautiful days. In all my 39 years, I think 2019 will be locked in as most significant. Life is like the weather, you have bright sunny days and others that are stormy. I feel the same way reflecting back on different years of my life. Some just…

The holiday season can bring great joy and excitement. It can also bring stress and feelings of being overwhelmed. For many, it triggers emotions of grief and sadness. Most of us are a snow globe of emotions this time of year. One shake can bring on great sadness, and a second shake can warm our…

There is a feeling Seattle leaves you with. It’s a cozy city. You are surrounded with tall buildings yet get the strangest small town vibe. The air is crisp and fresh. It’s hard to explain how different the air feels when you breath it in. My first morning here I was wide awake at 4:00…

Marley Moo Hillkirk, our Moo Moo. She was our runt, with skinny legs, a “husky” body, and the sweetest face you’ve ever seen. Marley loved to give kisses, or as we called them moochies. If you made the kissing sound she’d come running from another room to kiss your face off. We got Marley in…

We as women are constantly apologizing. I recently had a friend point out my constant need to preface my thoughts with “I’m sorry”. This stopped me in my tracks. I started to ask myself if in those moments I am actually sorry. There is a real difference between habitually apologizing for vocalizing my opinion or…